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Slovenska športnica objavila fotografijo, kaj takega ni pričakoval nihče: V takšnem stanju sem že pet mesecev

9. June, 2020 8:00
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Ena najboljših slovenskih deskark na snegu Gloria Kotnik je v težki življenjski situaciji, saj se že več mesecev se sooča z zdravstvenimi težavami.

»To sem jaz. In to sem tudi jaz. Ni se bilo lahko takole pokazati in spregovoriti, ampak vem, da me mnogi sprašujete, kaj se dogaja. Oddaljila sem se od telefona in si vzela čas zase. Najpomembneje je, da se vsak dan počutim bolje. Moje življenje je bilo v zadnjih letih zelo intenzivno. Vedno sem bila polna energije, tekla, trenirala na vso moč, potovala … Besede ne sploh ni bilo v mojem slovarju. Nato sem doživela zlom, ki pa me ni izučil. Stanje se je izboljšalo, ampak verjetno nikoli nisem popolnoma okrevala in na vse skupaj pozabila. Spet sem začela delati vse po starem, sploh se nisem zavedala, kakšen tempo živim. To zimo pa se je vse vrnilo. Poznala sem občutek, čutila sem, da nekaj prihaja, se zaustavila, si privoščila več časa za počitek in zase, ampak je bilo prepozno. V takšnem stanju sem že pet mesecev. Ne gre samo za zunanji videz, ampak kar je pomembneje – gre za to, kako se počutim. Utrujena po vsakem najmanjšem naprezanju ali že samo po hrani. Nisem mogla normalno spati brez protibolečinskih tablet oziroma preživeti dneva brez bolečin in slabega počutja. Predstavljajte si profesionalnega športnika, ki ne more prehoditi stopnic do stanovanja … V zadnjem mesecu sem se resnično trudila narediti vse, da bi se pozdravila. Hodila od zdravnika do zdravnika, dokler nisem spoznala, da ne bo bolje, če nečesa ne bom popolnoma spremenila. Nikoli si nisem vzela časa zase (s tem mislim na preživljanje časa z družino) in se posvetila stvarem, ki me resnično veselijo,« je zapisala v ganljivi objavi.

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This is me. And this is also me. ⬅️ It was not easy to show this and open up, but I know many were asking what’s going on. I distanced from my phone to really take time for myself. The important thing is that I feel better every day. My lifestyle in the past few years was super intense. I was always full of energy, running around, training, working my ass off, traveling… Word NO didn’t really exist in my vocabulary. I already had a collapse – I didn’t learn. I got better, but probably never fully recovered and quickly forgot my lesson. I have started doing the same old things again… I didn’t even realize with what speed I “live” my life. This winter everything came back. I knew that feeling and felt it’s coming, so I started slowing myself down, taking more rest and time for myself, but it was already too late. I’ve been in this condition for the past five months. It’s not just how it looks on the outside, but more important… how I really feel on the inside. Tired after every little effort I do, or food I eat. Not capable to have a normal sleep without a pain killer, or go through the day without pain or sickness. Imagine- professional athlete that is not able to climb the stairs to the apartment. In the past month I was really trying to do everything to get better. Going from one doctor to another, until I have realized that it won’t get any better if I don’t change something dramatically. I never took time for myself – and by this I mean to spend time with my favorite people (I call them family) and do more things that really make me happy. I was always super responsible, hard working and basically doing everything what I thought I MUST do. Always when taking any decisions, I thought of other people feelings before my own… For the first time in my life I let myself go with the flow, let things happen, ✋ stop controlling everything, making plans, sticking myself into the frame. Not thinking of what I must do tomorrow, but what I WANT to do today.??? I feel like I am becoming the old G again. And I like it a lot. ☀️ I am thankful to the moon and back for the support and love from my closest ones.❤️ Let’s see what the future brings.??

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Ob tem je dodala, da je prvič v življenju pustila stvarem prosto pot, prenehala sem razmišljati, kaj bo počela jutri, ampak začela razmišljati, kaj bo počela danes.

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